I put my my full length mirror away some time ago so I truly had no idea just how bad things have become. And this is not a post fishing for comments like "you have great smile" or "you're such a nice person." Yeah, I am an obese woman with a nice personality and smile. Whatever! Tell that to my future cardiologist as he cracks open my ribs to do surgery.
At least I didn't gain any weight while Luke was deployed. I fluctuated a tiny bit but now I am exactly where I was when he left. I suppose that's good. But now the weather is nice and it's time to get serious. I will not be turning my blog into a weight loss blog though.
I am also in a bit of a rut. I am on parish council and we are trying to do some renovations on our round, kneelerless, 1970's church. It's been frustrating, especially dealing with 10 certain people, a number of whom were responsible for the grotesque design of the place. I am getting to the point where I don't even want to go to Mass. My husband even said, "you're not yourself about church right now." Just to test me he suggested we go to the Pentecostal church next week. I gave him a withering glance. He smiled. His Catholic wife is still in there...somewhere.
I still believe all Catholic teaching, I love the Pope, and Holy Communion is still the summit of my life. I guess I am just tired of fighting the hippies that say things like, "we should be looking at each other during mass and praying for each other."
WHERE does it say we should be looking at each other in the documents of Vatican II, the Catechsim or the bible and where might this even be implied in Church teaching?! I want to SHAKE people that say ignorant things like that! I suppose that's why God steered this person to someone kinder than I am.
*sigh*
Going to bed now.
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