I am wondering though if part of this little ritual is an attempt to "control" things. In my heart am I secretly thinking "if I pray this nothing will happen for the next 12 - 13 hours"? Yes, I am thinking and hoping that. However, I know I control NOTHING. I know that as many sacrifices as I make, prayers that I pray, or as much money as I pour into the Church - I control NOTHING.
I know that being sinless does not make me immune from pain or suffering. Just ask the Blessed Mother or her Son Jesus about that.
This trusting thing...phew, it's hard! I'm learning though. I am now one billionth of a trillionth of a gram closer to understanding His ways.
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