Luke called me this morning. He had the day off. He was returning my call because I had lost his email address in the Great (computer) Crash of '09 back in July. Anyway, we had a good conversation and because Nikki and my hubby weren't home it was a real heart to heart. I spent most of the call with my head tilted back to keep the tears at bay.
Of course by the end of the call I couldn't hold back anymore. I really didn't want him to hear me sobbing. He chided me gently - normally you could hear his eyes rolling back in their sockets...oh boy...here goes Mom again...crying at the Hallmark commercial. I told him I wasn't crying because I was worried he couldn't do his job - I told him I was going to miss him while he was away. He said it was OK. We told each other we loved each other and I hung up. Then the real tears came.
I let myself sob for a minute and then got myself together to get to work. I'd be fine, just need something to occupy my mind! Yeah! That's it!
I got to work and a few minutes later the business manager came by and asked how I was. I can fake it with most people but not her. I started to cry. She asked if I wanted to go home. No. So she gave me an errand to do and told me to get a coffee and some fresh air. I felt better after that.
I don't often ask for prayers for myself but today I am. Oh Mama Mary, HOW did you do it?
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